Confessional Box

excerpt from a recent letter i wrote to someone that i hope to be friends with:

so as for me…where to start? i never imagined myself being a teacher but it’s turn out to be a mind expanding experience. i think about things on a whole different level. almost on a basic level. do you know who maslow is?

i always studied maslow’s hierarchy of needs when i was taking marketing class. now it makes such perfect sense. even when dealing with adults i try to consider their basic needs, just like i do with my students, and it totally works. i would’ve never gotten this experience without my little snot monsters.

as for my spirituality, its grown so much by being abroad and often uncomfortable. i mean, i love everything and have a ton of fun…but i can’t say its not frustrating when i can’t communicate what i want to buy/eat/do. god has been such a part of all of that, including my relationship with boyfriend.

i prayed about this guy from the beginning. months before our first date. i just wanted god to lead. and he did and he does. and sometimes i get worried and i feel shaken by what other people have to say. and whenever i go back to a state of prayer and meditation, i feel solid again. its hard though…everyone’s got their opinions. but in the beginning and end, its only god’s guidance and wisdom that matter.

so now i feel guilty that i don’t know enough korean and thats kind of selfish. i should study more so life will be easier and i can communicate with yoon’s family and friends. but i’ll tell you what, its so hot and humid that i don’t want to study/clean/cook/anything.

wow…that’s a blog in and of itself…i think i should post it… maybe i will…

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